Vance has you....

...Vance has you...

Wake up Neo...
...Vance's Sanity has you...
...Follow the white rabbit....
...Knock Knock , Neo...
I AM THE ONE!

Friday, July 30, 2004

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My ringtone just made me calm down. How unlikely. The song is 'K Ge Zhi Wang'. It's a beautiful one.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?2:36 PM

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I realised how much I neglected my friends in pursuit of a career that would not even be one. A part time job. How much is one willing to sacrifice to be the best at what he does? It is a bloody part time job. Am I really a pushover for people? To allow myself to be someone's beck and call and to always be the one being compromised.

All I want to do is to hold the girl who loves me and I love, listen to the waves and let the sea breeze brush gently across our faces. To let her feel the warmth of my hands and the comfort of my touch.

All I want if I am alone is to enjoy a cup of coffee at my favorite cafe and watch the crowd and time pass me by.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?2:16 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

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Seems like I've got a penchant to worry about things and people. Worry about the girl I like getting drunk, worry about the girl that likes me being hurt, worry about my ex girlfriend by bullied by her partner, worry about my friends who just got hurt in relationship, worry about my performance on my part-time job, worry about my family who is always asleep by the time I get home.

Do I have to take things so seriously? One would often take things easy to be more forgiving on oneself. Afterall, it could just be a part-time job, a girl you just knew, a girl you do not like, a girl who broke up with you, friends who do not really need any help, family who will always be around. When one takes things with a less eager approach, serendipity may happen but what if it does not? At least by trying my best and if i still do not meet my expectations, I can say I tried, with pride in my heart and will hold no regrets.

Do people question how much the person they like, likes them? Maybe trust comes into play but often actions do reassure one of the love or feelings. It has been quite a long time since I learn to trust people so unquestionably. Want only the best for her and I.

Losing sleep has been the biggest issue in my life that requires immediate address. Worrying about things does make one less able to retire at night, less so comfortably. Maybe I should just relax and watch the world pass by. Non-chalance has always been a front, not a character. Then one may ask what is then? I would have a grin on my face, abide cheeky, and reply,'Passion'.
There is hope for the world.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?12:11 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

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I can't sleep. All I want is happiness for myself and my loved ones. Be it difficult or easy. I just hope that I can be given the chance. A chance to love.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?2:44 AM

Friday, July 09, 2004

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The Reason
by Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it the way
And me the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?9:53 AM

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People should just fucking get a life. They don't know what they want and make the fucking choices that even the most mentally-handicapped person will not make. They ignore people's advice and choose to try things out for fun. The consequences could be too great for their immature minds to take but they refuse to relent. Being indignant about their moves and hurting those around them. Nobody knows what they want anymore. They cannot decide who they like, who they want to hurt. It just fucking hurts everyone. It would be good to say that one's tears are worthless.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?3:18 AM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

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Is one able to survive without companionship? What would become of one who keeps from interacting with people. Gossip, hurt and hypocracy do not just stop with the ceasing of interacting. No matter what, one can never run away from the views and judgement of people. As things turn to look pessimistic, one can always depend on those who are one's friends. Thank you my friends, for making life better for me.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?2:59 AM