Vance has you....

...Vance has you...

Wake up Neo...
...Vance's Sanity has you...
...Follow the white rabbit....
...Knock Knock , Neo...
I AM THE ONE!

Sunday, May 30, 2004

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One should never ask what are one's chances. It works this way- if one is told one stands a high chance, and in the end, one does not meet one's expectations, it would only be more disappointing than if one had never known one's chances. Would it not be weird that one needs the reassurances of others to draw confidence? Who then, should be a judge of one's chances at all? Who can so confidently predict the future? If anyone should be a judge of one's chances, it should be oneself. No one knows anyone better than oneself. Though sometimes willing ignorance of the improbable would smear one's eyes with a cloud called self-denial. Preserverance? Pure stupidity? Do not bother, let one just take it as the world is laughing at oneself. As the world scrutinises one's actions, there would be comments that would be biased and tainted with bitterness and jealousy. One may question one's actions but not one's ability. The very second one questions one's ability, one has already made the choice to give up.

As the world pours poison from its chalice of hurt, one should not cry out loud. For crying does not help to calm oneself or meet one's expectations. One should try to smile and laugh in the face of death. Loneliness then becomes more easy to endure.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?7:29 PM

Thursday, May 27, 2004

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Does one ever wonder what it would be like to face the end of the world? Watched The Day After Tomorrow. The story may be quite the same as any other films about diasters, but it is the father and son relationship that touched my heart. It is like how I know my father would cross any land just to come for me. The expertise that he might possess might be very different from the lead though. It is also the fact that people are willing to sacrifice for one another that made the movie so much more than an action-diaster movie. There was a scene where a doctor was willing to accompany a young boy suffering from cancer, for an ambulance that have seemingly failed to come. In the end, it did come for the both of them but the whole point is that the doctor would never know and the love for another person is shown here. One of the most tear-jerking scenes. Maybe one would feel the urge to spend more time with one's family. One will never know when the end of the world is coming.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?11:01 AM

Monday, May 24, 2004

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I think I have developed this unneeded penchant to whine. Maybe I should start to think about happy thoughts. Life can fuck up for all I care as long as I am thinking about happy thoughts.
Right... That does not just stop. My sarcasm is like an urge that cannot be subsided. It is an interesting trait of mine that draws people to me, but at times I can get really detestable with it. Kenneth commented that Joanne left me as she most likely almost died because of how sarcastic I am. It was a joke but that got me thinking. Maybe it is the same sarcastic humour that allowed William to identify me to Chandler from Friends, but like steak overdone, overdosage of sarcasm can kill the fun in any kinds of relationship. Some person did mention that I should just be the way I am and that my sarcasm is part of who I am and part of what people like about me. Dead-panned humour or not. Interesting thought.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?1:20 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2004

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How loser can one get? I burnt the kettle trying to boil water. Left it on the fire and actually forgot about it. I'm alone at home and the people I asked out have fucking forgot to reply me. They say one becomes edgy without having enough food. I believe I epitomises the saying. I had a Mcspicy meal for lunch and am running on water. Or whatever that's left, since water cannot be boiled because of the spoilt kettle. Maybe I should just stick to some biscuits and milk.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?10:33 PM

Friday, May 21, 2004

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Vance you're a fucker. You're a jerk. You're a loser. You're a lame person. You're are nonsensical. You don't mean what you say.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?10:26 PM

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

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I'm not in love
Olive

I'm not in love
So don't forget it
It's just a silly phase
I'm going through
And just because
I call you up
Don't get me wrong
And think you've gotten me

I'm not in love, no no

I'd like to see you
But then again
It doesn't mean
You mean that much to me
So if I call you
Don't make a fuss
Don't tell your friends
About the two of us

I'm not in love, no no

I keep your picture
Up on the wall
It hides a nasty stain
That's lyin' there
So don't you ask me
To give it back
I know you know
It doesn't mean
That much to me

I'm not in love, no no

Ooh, you wait a long time for me
Ooh, you wait a long time
Ooh, you wait a long time for me
Ooh, you wait a long time

I'm not in love
So don't forget it
It's just a silly phase
I'm goin' through
And just because
I call you up
Don't get me wrong
And think you've gotten me

I'm not in love
I'm not in love

This song reminds me of once when I was in love with a girl. The relationship didn't work out and I was in self-denial. The first time one hears it, the song may sound like a song that tells someone to see the truth that there is no love. After a while, it just sounds like self-denial of a person who is deeply in love. No hidden agenda, just want to share this song with others.

What's left? The liberation of man kind...?6:21 PM